Beneath the thick layer of mulch is a layer of ”Professional Grade” vegetation barrier cloth. Yet, despite all of this, I was out spraying for weeds yet again in the area behind our pool. It seems that no matter what I do, those weeds still manage to pop up. It is as though their roots will cling to the tiniest of specks of dirt.
So, with my trusty pump sprayer in hand, I set about once again killing weeds. I’m not surrendering to them. Instead, I’m going all Churchill on them. I will fight them in the flower beds. I will fight them in the sidewalk cracks. I will even fight them as they try to creep over the fence from the neighbor’s backyard. I will never give up… never give in.
Anyway, while back there, I noticed a collection of cherry pits beneath our cherry tree. Then, looking up, I realized that all of our beautiful cherries were gone. The tree, abundant with cherries only a week prior, had been picked clean. Not a single piece of the delicious red fruit was left behind.
No wonder all of our backyard critters have looked so happy recently!
It has been two years since Amanda convinced me to surrender those cherries to the various animals who enjoy feasting on them. Even at their ripest, they do not rival the cherries I can purchase at our local ALDI. In fact, the same can be said for our apple trees. Their bitter fruit is not a treat for us humans; but the animals seem to love it.
So, Churchill’s voice has been silenced where our fruit trees are concerned. I have chosen to stop fighting against the insurmountable number of backyard residents.
Because I stopped fighting, my attitude changed toward those pits I saw on the ground. When I saw them, instead of resenting those critters for stealing my precious fruit, I smiled. I thought about what a treat it must surely have been for them. Along with that reaction came something very dear to me. I found myself experiencing serenity. Serenity, even in the midst of my battle against those weeds.
Learning lessons such as those taught by the weeds and the cherry tree have become vital to my recovery from drug addiction. Going Churchill on my character defects is like fighting those weeds in my yard. In Steps Six and Seven, I become ready to have God remove my character defects; and then ask Him to. In turn, He is faithful to provide a spiritual principle, or principles, that I can apply when tempted to act out on a defect of character.
When He does this, God is basically telling me to Go Churchill on those defects. He gives me the weapons for the battle; but expects me to play a major role in it. Ironically, surrender plays an important role in each of these battles, as I set aside those character defects in favor of principles.
These battles are like my battle against the weeds. Weeds that want to take root in my life. Weeds, that in my case, are the drugs that once held me in their grips.
On the other hand, There are those battles that God does not want me to even attempt to fight. Chief among these battles are the ones in which I am tempted to try and change others. As with our cherry tree, I fought hard agains letting these battles go. I especially wanted to take on those people I perceived as life’s antagonists.
Thankfully, in His wisdom and grace, God showed me that these are not my battles to fight. Even better, He has helped me see that they are not antagonists at all. So, like letting go of those cherries, I let go of my perceived right to battle such folks. Again, allowing surrender to restore serenity in my life.
Have a remarkable day!